Let There Be Light

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness cannot overcome it. - John 1:5 ESV

This may be a very difficult website for some to read. Please know that it was written with prayer, love and honestly, from a heart broken by the many dozens upon dozens of stories of hearts and lives wronged. Take your time sorting through all the information here. Don't take in more than you can handle. Ask the Holy Spirit to be with you as you read. So much of this information, whether written here or whispering reminders in your heart, connecting with your own painful experiences and the uncomfortable questions you've had... it's easier to look away. It's easier to pretend this isn't happening. Or, once you can finally look at it, the horror of recognizing the enormity of the situation can be unbearable. It's painful. 

God is not bringing these things to light to harm you. He loves you. He is making a way for your freedom. You will know the truth and the truth will set you free. He never said that the truth would always be easy. He never promised that the truth wouldn't be painful. This is a hard truth. This is going to be a hard-fought freedom.

Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” - John 8:12

Some of the common reactions to the truth about Morning Star Church and its leaders are fight, flight or freeze. For many, it's all of them at different points. Wherever you are on that list, don't be afraid. Take His hand. Little by little He is bringing you into the light, for your good, for your freedom. 

Light exposes. If what is exposed is lovely, we thank God. If it is ugly, we thank God. We cannot condemn the light for exposing hard truth. We can thank God that He is bringing things out of the darkness, for our good. For our healing. For our wholeness. So that we can move forward.

The truth is not your enemy. It is your freedom. Don't shut the door on the One who is here to rescue you. Take courage. 

Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path. - Psalm 119:105

And I will give you treasures hidden in the darkness--secret riches. I will do this so you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, the one who calls you by name. - Isaiah 45:3

Courage is living with the possibility of hope rather than being paralyzed by fear. - Christine Caine

Hope is the fight you feel in your soul when you want to give up. - Kristene DiMarco

Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul - and sings the tunes without the words - and never stops at all. - Emily Dickinson 

You will not escape pain. You will only decide if pain will soften or harden your heart. - Jessica Clark

Take the very hardest thing in your life -- the place of difficulty, outward or inward, and expect God to triumph gloriously in that very spot. Just there HE can bring your soul into blossom. - Lilias Trotter


Pilgrim's Story

A guest post...

If you grew up reading Pilgrim’s Progress you will recall that throughout Pilgrim’s journey to the Celestial City, he is often waylaid by his own temptations and desires. Sometimes however, he is ensnared through no fault of his own. It is the latter of the two situations I found myself in. Read more.


...and they remembered His words, and returning from the tomb they told all these things to the eleven and to all the rest... but these words seemed to them an idle tale, and they did not believe them. Luke 24:1-11 ESV

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If 2017 and now 2018 have held anything, they have held extreme lessons in courage. I'm talking crash-course-pushed-off-a-cliff-you-have-no-choice-do-or-die courage. It sounds dramatic, but most of the time it was fairly mundane. Read more.


On Leaving "Well"

Let’s just get this out of the way: There is no way to leave Morning Star Church well. This does not mean that you cannot leave graciously. To the best that you can given your situation, and every situation is painfully unique, leave well. Read more.